It was only a matter of time
we both knew I had earned only a certain
limited number of steps I could take
in solitude and I wasted them all
running from whatever we had tried
to build or create and I wish
to god I was more sorry than I am
I wish right down to that first night
fearless and stupid and maybe
that never changed I never really learnt
anything but I was terrified I was
so scared all the time of losing you
and it happened and I decided not to be
scared of anything but it's hard to
control that rush of adrenalin and
blood that worms inside you your own
fucking beast ripping you to shreds
I think I know now why you did
the things I never could put to reason
but it's okay now it's over anyway