inexplicable

felt the shock of cells twisted

realigned growing new patterns of waste

naming ancient fires to light within your breast

it's not wrong to have knowledge

it's not wrong to feel your conviction twining

worming its way through chest cavity

speaking in your sleep, words unformed by mouths

not wrong to see his face under eyelids mirrored 

not wrong to mimic heartbeat bone-encased 

an echo yet of life within veins 

step across the threshold freely

you are welcome here

you can commit no error

you cannot falter cannot fall cannot fail.

it stirs within you and you can do no wrong

can sleep none 

no dreams come

still you only ever see his face

still you sank above drowning

still what mattered it how the ashes blow in the wind

you know every name there was. 

you can read the lines between flesh and flesh

and feel the distinctions 

melt

you can speak with a thousand voices 

and a thousand voices more

and a thousand eyes to see a thousand tongues lick clean your thousand wounds

a thousand hands to shape a thousand feet to march

a thousand bleeding vessels cry out to carry you onwards

onwards ever onwards

to it, to him, to the only conceivable

end